P.S: I'm going to try to make reasonings behind why everything could be happening so I'd appreciate if you could be like "Summaya, no, they (we?) definitely hate you". I'd prefer for you to be honest lmao. This is gonna start off hella random and I'm really sorry for unloading all of this onto you but I just feel as though the majority of our friend group don't really care about me anymore. It's hard to find a non-awkward conversation topic with them now. Like, I used to be 'best friends' (and I hate using that term so I'm going to use it sparingly) with some of them. This is kinda what I've been struggling with for the majority of 9th grade. It's possible that I might be misunderstanding things and pushing myself away from them, especially since I was in a major depressive episode for a large chunk of Semester 2. I was really burnt out too. Maybe I should try reaching out to friends I was close to now. The main thought that I've thinking is that they just don't like me anymore. They could be ashamed to hang out with me and all of my weird 'quirks' (and ik that word sounds hella cringey). Maybe I'm just not fun to hang out with anymore. I might have just run out of interesting things to say. Sometimes I think I should just leave my friend group and become more reserved. It's possible that our friends and I have simply grown apart. Haha, that was the rational side speaking but I'm also kinda angry so bear with me. They went to a cinema and on two picnics twice without me. Sure, I was invited to one of them but that was by one person on the last day when I asked them their plans for the weekend. It seemed like a pity invitation to me. And afterwards they kept talking about the trip in front of me and I felt so fckn jealous, yk? That was hella hurtful because I expected my friends to at least invite me a few days in advance, even it was just to make me feel comfortable. Maybe they thought I wouldn't be interested and would decline. Still, they could have at least bothered to invite me. Plus, almost everyone (except maybe you, Charlotte, and Marina) ignores me on the group chat. I don't get any of the inside jokes and I haven't been added to any mini-group chats. lmao or maybe that's just me being petty and they didn't get the time? Idk, the only time I really felt important to our friend group was when I was done with our last Science essay early and everyone asked me to proof-read their essays. Otherwise they usually just ignored me and pretended I didn't exist. I remember trying to talk to someone and they just turned the other way. Heh I'm really unimportant, aren't I? Tbh I don't really know what I want. Just some closure, I guess. I'd like you to tell me whether I should stop trying to be friends with them and allow shit to happen or if I should actually try to do something (and if this option, wtf should I do?). Or in more general (less hateful) terms, I'd like it if you would be willing to help me fix this problem by talking it through with me. Another P.S: You probably think I'm overreacting but I'm not just reacting to this simple ignoring, I'm reacting to every single memory of loneliness I have associated with this friend group now. I say this cuz I tried talking about it with family members and they said I was being a 'drama queen' lol.