I am sorry, I understood last re kene kichi no kohiki poleilo, and mu ethi pai hi setebele call katunothili because tome normally chaliki jiba bele almost kotha complete heijae. I thought ebe bhi heijibo. But I am extremely sorry because bapa call korithile and raguthile and still mu emti houthili. Dekho I would say ki some part of me knows all this and knows ki call katibar ochi, but I would say that due to being constantly immature. reels taught me do so and those shitty ideas still persisted till now, atleast ebe toh tomo kotha suniki ebe sobu clear heiparila. I would constantly run around pleasing you because when I didn't you got angry or sad. Listen, setare tomoro and moro dui Jan nkoro bhul thila, tome bhi bohut time re emti kotha kohicho ki, ei small gesture korilini boli I don't love you etc etc. It's EXTREMELY GOOD that tome nijoro sei sobu mistakes guda realise koriparicho and mote bhi koroucho, because frankly, tomku mote correct korite bohut doro laguthila because I thought you'd leave me. (how fucking stupid of me,now I think). So, now that I realise how important it is to do the right thing irrespective of what your partner thinks. You have to keep them happy to a certain extent, but not like you have to not tell them their mistakes. You're very nicely doing that. and man you have been successful to an extent because ebe janiparuchi ki you were right all along as we came towards previous year's end , but you were also little immature at the start and that wouldn't have been if we both would have taken rational decisions and understood our mistakes. Chado kichi nai, ant bhala toh sab bhala, ebe atleast bujhi paruchu ame(only because of your initiative). bhai literally kohuchi, you've maybe said this in a short and sweet manner a billion times before but I didn't understand. Now that I understand (maybe not to the full extent, but atleast somewhat), I feel very relieved at that thought. Because the definition of love will emerge automatically after we follow this philosophy and take 1 year off to make ourselves mature. Bro, I am telling you, I was still being immature today at the call, I am very sorry for that. But now, I will make constant and small improvements in myself daily to make my mind good again(I am very adaptable and I literally adapted to that Instagram mindset before). It's very relieving actually. I thought why didn't you send me a " I love you " message... Haww.... etc etc. bhai literally upto this call today even. But bhai I am assuring you, I have got it now. You do realise how pathetic movies and tv shows are at showing the nuanced emotional side of relationships? Man... Ei sobu kotha agru mu kohichi ki I have got it, But bhai actually re - gandu ku kichi bujhi asinothila 🤣. But hou ebe bhi kohuchi ki maybe mote bujhi asini, because ethoro overconfident hobar nahi nijo upre, but yaar really kichi na kichi tome mote bujheidelo. Achaa han gote jinso kintu kohuchi, Mu bujhi paruchi you're still attached and that's why you're still talking. otherwise you wouldn't. And actually now, sotore kohuchi, If we don't come into a relationship, I am completely fine with it. Because I am confident that if hobar thibo na, definitely 100% heijibo, and no hobar thile jetki jor jabardasti re love force try korile bhi hoboni. Man, I thank you so muchhh I will give a flying hug of it was possible. But actually na, it's just because of you, That I am able to realise this and just because of you I will be a better human in the future. Our futures will or won't be together, but I surely know that I will be forever grateful to you. Dekho, I feel this looks like I have realised everything, but I certainly know, etki sighro kebe possible nuhe, but atleast the first barrier towards maturity is broken.

One more thing I would like to add ki, if you get the correct knowledge from anyone or anywhere, it will always make you happy, because due to that knowledge only our ancestors have survived and passed down to us. Also I would like to say that I was behaving like a husband who didn't want his wife to divorce him. bro so stupid of me. (Man... the irony i making me CRINGE SO HARDDDD 😬)

listen, this doesn't mean ki I will stop caring, or suddenly lose empathy for you. This just means that I will treat you like a normal human being. And maybe that's what you wanted all along... 

Bhai suno, ei sobu knowledge kene public nahi?😤 Bhai etki sobu mistakes korisariki Jona poduchi. 

literally I am gonna kill this Instagram app's algorithm. Human IQ is getting significantly lower because kids who don't know better spend half half of their lives on them scrolling and getting wrong advice for life. Bhai na I am telling you, with this insight, I will lead a much more peaceful life. And I would be very happy if we can meet in the future :). I am not saying that at this important stage of life I am going into another relationship, but I am just saying ki your insight has been very valuable. If you find another better partner then aram se jibo without any guilt and just let me know ok? Because mote ei kotha realise korite bohut time lagigola jouthi au kehi ei sobu jinso agru janithibo. But I will be extremely joyful and happy if you'd choose me. You're an extremely amazing person and you have got this extremely mast ability to learn from your mistakes very well. Thank youuuu so muchhh. I have learnt so much from you. ebe mu jae podhibi because time bohut poleilani aji, and tk extra no suiki no podhile hoboni. Murkho hobaro side effects 😅. Achaa han, ya pore mu au lekhibini because as you've said, sobu jinso ekla re realise korile better. Let's hope heijau realise. Dekho tomku bhi bujhi asithibo ki mote tk kotha late realise heichi eta, but at last hela na. And also, I finally realise that this is not some kind of punishment or anything. I have to just prove to myself that I am able to understand the realities of life within this time frame. I hope tome mo thu sighro eguda sobu realise koriki kohicho so, tome bhi eguda sobu life re implement koriparibo mo thu better. It won't be like, after 1 year, we both come out to be perfect or anything, But atleast then we can actually talk a bit and stay as friends until we figure out if we both think that we're suitable partners for life or not. Also, you must have realised that nobody in this world is perfect and even if choose to be together and choose to love each other, then we have to make it work, and make our partners better. But it shouldn't be like your partner has completely different ideologies and you sit there changing them, that is stupidity, you have to choose a partner who already aligns mostly with you and on the things they're bad at, we decide if that is permissible enough so that we can teach them in the future or not. Is that person going to change themselves in a positive manner if we decide to be in a relationship is a very big question. What do we want in them and what do they have etc. etc all play a role. I am saying all this because I want to highlight how stupid our relationship from the start was, just we decided to be partners for life just due to a I love you message. But dekho, maybe it would've worked out maybe it wouldn't have, god knows. Because there were multiple problems in the meantime which ruined a lot of things, but I think that was for a reason, and that was to teach us how to be in life. Hmm also, if we some day decide to be partners, then I would like you to take your own decision rather than marrying someone because your family said so (that is very wrong and you're going to suffer for life if you don't like him). But also, I am saying this because if you come to like me in the future( That is only possible if I am suitable for both you and your family, I know that, then only you will like me and want to see me as your partner) and your family says that I can't marry you because of our past, then what will you do? (In this situation, assume that I am perfect for you, according to your own terms and also you have think that if I am suitable as per their thinking and liking. But don't factor in irrational things like caste or age. Those are clearly bullshit. I expect that you understand also.)(Think that would they accept me as their daughter's husband if they didn't know I had any history with you? If the answer to this is yes, then you should atleast talk to your brother and mother in the future to convince them, because just due to this childhood problems I don't want that they discriminate against me even if I am perfect for you.) And also, I would like to tell you that I still want that I become enough for you. Please don't discriminate with me for our past problems. If you don't, I know that you'll be able to convince everyone around you, because you'll be that much mature and your family would know that you are taking the right decision. I think I am being like before again. Dekhucho, Sethi pai kohuthili ki ebe jai completely bujhini. But dekho, I understand I will have to let you go if you don't want me. But I don't want ki you let me go because your family said so. If you think that I am not enough, then I am completely fine letting go, but if your family stigmatises against me and doesn't let me marry you even if you love me(IF you love me) I will be completely heartbroken. Ok I realise let's not go there because that's very far away and I trust you that you'll take the correct decision, even if means hurting me. DO WHAT'S RIGHT. don't think that I will break his heart etc etc. Think for yourself, if you want me or not. That's more important, and if the answer to that question is yes, then automatically everything will happen. (Man you see my duality of thoughts, thank God nije bujhigoli lekhu lekhu otherwise I would have cried again and called you again). Last part re kemti sola mu dukhi houthili shit.... But it doesn't matter if you love me and I love you. So that's what is called as true love's strength. Ok I understand, so sorry for what I have written in the last part. But dekho it was just my inner bhadas and I let it out, atlast I feel better. 

Final kotha tahale ki, if 1 year ame kotha helu, then if lage ki sango heite icha, then hoba(etki toh Bhai laguchi ki hoba, I don't think ki etki tome ki mu khorap heijaithiba ki eta hoboni, still just speculating), then after completing college, we can talk about possibilities of relationships, in the meantime we would be building our startups or be doing some research, or jobs or anything else. When we become stable enough, We can decide if we want to be partners for life. And at any point inbetween this long journey if you find anyone suitable, please go and marry him because I don't want to stop your decisions in life because I am becoming selfish. That's wrong. So please if you get anybody who's very good and you're confident about him, go with it, don't wait just because of me. If I ask you not to marry a person who's obviously good for you, it would be extremely selfish and bad. As to what I will do, dekho, I don't think there exists anybody like you who has all the qualities that you have. But I can't guarantee that there isn't. Maybe there can be, but I would like you more because you have the advantage in the situation of knowing me more and guiding me through life. I can't say anything for sure. And that's how it should be. But it's highly unlikely that someone as good as you likes me back... So... Idk. Let's see what happens. Don't be sad by my words please. I love you ok?(Atleast for now I feel so). But I believe I will continue loving you. Let's hope that good for both of us happens, even if we aren't together, because I know that we both wouldn't like each other to suffer in life. This year is going to be a difficult one... I hope I am able to survive during this period. It's because everything happened so suddenly and I am still very upset for everything that happened in our lives. If I could, I would go back in time and not used Instagram and made my mindset good, learn emotions from you, made you realise how to be mature without making you feel bad. I would make you focus on studies and I would study really hard from the start as well. I believe that even if we had started the relationship at that time as a mistake, but if I would follow good principles in life and lead you towards our goals instead of relying on temporary pleasures, we would have succeeded in our relationship, even at that time. But reality is often disappointing... What can we do?... I hope this year of not talking actually brings positive changes in our lives. I hope to god that he makes me capable enough and mature enough for you. I will work hard. Rectify my mistakes and come back as a better man for you. I still believe that it was love, even if it was rushed and even if a lot of wrong things happened. Because our spirit never broke and we persevered. I don't know what we'll think in the future. But for now, I think we loved each other truly. So, ending at a positive note here, I love you adu mam. Goodbye. 🫂🫂🫂👋 (Write OK. if you've seen this complete message, in the playlist )