HI

like, its usually me not wanting to talk / not being ok to talk that starts it
because like, why would I do work (sending messages out and checking pings) to get myself more work (a conversation) over a thing I dont wanna do (talk)
btw not that I see my friends as "work"
im sure u understand the SZ vibe
it's just, unless I have that inner desire to interact with people
its just so much work
side note
I fucking hate that shit
everyone using like, it takes so and so minutes to do xyz thing, why cant you just do it?
brushing my teeth genuinely gives me suicidal urges lmao
im disabled for fucks sake
i dont care about two minutes
its not about time
like newsflash lmao, besides some appts and stuff
my schedule has PLENTY of free room
just act like its us being shitty or lazy / not wanting to work 
and then use that to debate into "we are selfish"
and its like, fucked because the answer IS yes
but they are missing the whole entire point
like you can argue yes vs. no / pro v. cons
but arguing with someone who disagrees with / misunderstands me
yet they are arguing technically from my side of the fence
it means we aren't even on the same book much less the same page lmao
thats why I like egoism
if everyone was egoist, they would understand why this isnt a problem
because EVERYONE behaves and acts out of this same principle
the thing about SCHIZOPHRENIA
is that we essentially lose the actual willpower to do these things that we have 0 interest in
like sure, who likes taking out the trash lol its not fun
but the point is, no one should be expected to do these (often LITTLE) things if they cause us immense suffering and anguish
its like newsflash dipshit, yeah, just like you, I dont enjoy doing the dishes lmao
like, if its a crime for schizophrenics to not like washing dishes
then it turns out that 99.9% of the country needs to be arrested lmao